I don’t have any words left.
My Zoë died this afternoon.
We don’t know why yet.
My Zoë is gone and my Lennox is gone and I don’t know if anything will ever fill this hole.
January 24, 2008 by A.M.S.
I don’t have any words left.
My Zoë died this afternoon.
We don’t know why yet.
My Zoë is gone and my Lennox is gone and I don’t know if anything will ever fill this hole.
OMG…I am so sorry for your losses.
I don’t know what to say, except that my heart is breaking for you and your husband. This is so horribly unfair and I am so sorry. You all will be in my prayers.
There are no words.
I have no words either. I am heartbroken alongside you. I don’t know you but I was checking up on your little Z every day and I felt like she was my own. I am so very sorry, so very sorry. I don’t know if it is any comfort but little Zoe was very much loved during her short little life, even by strangers. Strange how three weeks of a tiny fighter’s life can leave such an impression but there it is. I’ll never forget her.
I’m so sorry.
I am so very very sorry for you and your sweet babes 😦
I am completely sick and heartbroken. I cannot even begin to comprehend how you and S must feel.
Sweet Zoe, we miss you. Please give huge hugs to your brother. I know with certainty that the two of you are together. We will never forget either of you.
We are saying many prayers for peace and healing.
I’m so very sorry for your losses.
Oh no, oh no… No words. My heart is so heavy and sad for you right now. I wish I could change it all for you.
(((hugs))) I am so, so sorry. 😦
Sweetest AMS, please know that the whole blogosphere is crying with you. I am so sorry.
I’m so, so sorry.
I am so, so sorry.
I am so so sorry for your losses. You don’t know me – I am just a lurker but I have been thinking of you, your little Lennox and your little Zoe.
I am so sorry.
Add my tears to all the others who weep for you and your sweet Zoe. Her courage tugged at my heart and charmed me across all the miles. I am so very sorry. You have my prayers.
There is nothing to say to make this alright. Just know that your two sweet babies have made an impact on many in their time here. My thoughts are with you and your husband, and we all share your grief with you at this time.
Words are not enough. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family at this horrible time.
What???? I am shocked and saddened. Thinking of you and your family….
Oh, I am so very, very sorry for your loss.
I’ve never commented or spoken to you. But I just had to say how sorry I am for your loss. As I sit here and cry, I can not imagine what you’re feeling. You’re in my prayers.
My heart is just broken for you. I have no words, just prayers.
My heart is just broken for you. I have no words, just prayers. I’m so very, very sorry.
I am so so so sorry. I just cannot find the words to say how sad I am for you and your family.
I’m sorry. How sudden and shocking and horrible. Sending you love from Michael and I.
I am so sorry for your loss and you, your partner and the babies are in my thoughts and prayers! Let me give you my arms to take away a little of the pain you are feeling and ease your burden.
There are no words that can comfort you in this time of sadness. I am so sorry to hera about your Sweet Zoe.
I wish I had words of comfort for you – there are none.
I am so very, very sorry.
Much love to you x
I am shocked and heartbroken for the loss of you beautiful Zoe and her twin Lennox. There is nothing left to say and oh how I too wish I had words of comfort for you – as others have said there are none .
I am so very sorry. I will never forget Zoe & Lennox. I will donate two bears in their honour to Teddy Love Club in Australia So from across the miles please know you are not alone. It is so unfair.
All strength to you & your family
I have no words, other than I am so sorry for your losses. It’s so unfair, and I am praying for you.
I am also am shocked and heartbroken . I wish I had the right words to confort you. I’ll do the only thing that I know how to : Pray for you and your husband
I am so sorry , I am so sorry
Hugs
I am so so very sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts.
Oh no. I am so sorry.
I’m thinking of you.
xxx
My deepest sympathies to you, you and your family are in my heart and prayers.
I am in complete shock. Words cannot describe how very sorry I am. You and your family are in my prayers.
I am so terribly sorry. My heart is breaking for you and your family. I’m just so, so sorry.
I am praying for you and your family.
I am so very sorry for your losses.
My heart is breaking. Through tears, I pray for peace and understanding. I am so sorry.
I’m so sorry for your losses.
I wish I knew the magical words to make everything OK. I wish, I wish, I wish.
So sorry for your heartbreak.
Thinking of you in the coming days and weeks. Your sweet babies brought a lot of light into the world in their short time here. May they continue to shine brightly in your healing hearts.
I am so, so sorry.
I am so sorry… so very sorry.
Oh my God. I am so sorry for your losses.
Today here is cloudy and a light snow is falling very gently … it seems to me that nature is crying and grieving with you. I am so very sorry. My heart goes out to you and your family.
there really are no words…
(((Hugs)))))
I am so very sorry for your losses, no one should ever have to experience this much pain. I wish I could hug you.
My deepest sympathies to you in this time of tragedy. Sending you all of the peace and goodwill inside my being.
i am so, so sorry.
there aren’t words for this.
There are no words, but I am truly sorry.
I’m so, so sorry.
I am stunned and so very sorry for you both. The unfairness in unimaginable. I’m so sorry. Wishing you peace in the future.
I am so sorry for your loss. There are no words that can express how sorry I am. I am thinking about you and your husband. Both of your hearts must be completely broken. I am sorry that you have to go through this now with Zoe when it seems like just yesterday that it happened with Lennox. I am just so sorry for both of your losses.
I am so, so very sorry. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
My heart hearts for you both. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
I wish my tears were of some comfort as there are plenty of them. I am so very sorry. I hate the world right now. This should never have happened.
Thinking of you and wishing you all peace.
I am so sorry.
I am so, so sorry. Thinking of you and hoping you will find some peace…someday.
I am so very sorry. You and your angels will be in my prayers.
My heart breaks for you, a stranger, but your loss touched me, I’m so very sorry! May you one day, find the strength to carry on.
I can hardly believe it. You have all been through so much. My heart breaks for you.
xx
there are no words to convey the sadness i feel for you and your DH.
you are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so very sorry. I have never visited your blog before, but I read the news on Lost & Found and had to come and leave a comment. I know, there is nothing I can say to give you any comfort right now. I’m just so very sorry.
I’m so so sorry for your loss. I lost my son at 34 weeks in 2004. The loss stays with you forever. The pain, too, is always there but does dull somewhat with time. I wish you peace in the coming days.
I am so sorry for your lost. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I’m so very sorry for you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
I am so sorry. There are no words to make the hurt, anger, loss, grief, etc go away. Know that there are lots of people praying for you and your family.
no words here, either.
Just very heavy, sorrowful tears.
I am so sorry.
I am so sorry. No words can do justice for your terrible losses. You and S are in my prayers.
I’m so sorry. Stopped by today for the first time through Cibele and I’m speechless. I am praying for you right now.
I’m so so deeply sorry. There are no words, only wishes and prayers for peace and healing. My heart goes out to you and your family. ~luna
Oh my dear God, I am just stunned and crushed and horrified. And weeping openly. I am so incredibly sorry. I hold you all in my heart. All of you.
I am very sorry for your losses. My first son was stillborn at 35 weeks for unknown reasons. The journey is long and hard, and the initial grieving feels like falling into a bottomless pit. We are forever changed, but time will help to ease the pain. In the meantime, be kind to yourself. Your babies knew only love.
Chills are running down my spine as I read this.
I’m so very sorry for your losses.
I”m so very sorry.
No – NO NO NO – oh what heartbreaking news, I am SO sorry.
Oh, no.
Hearts are breaking all over the Internet right along with yours.
There are not words… two of my three children have seen the inside of a NICU. One was an emergency and was there for 8 weeks and had low points that I cannot even think about now. We were lucky. I am so sorry. I am so, so very sorry.
I’m so very sorry for your loss. Please know that we are all thinking of you.
I’m so sorry. I don’t know what else to say. I’m so sorry.
Bea
I am so sorry. My heart is breaking for you and your whole family. There is no way to make this better. I am sorry. So so sorry.
A year out from the death of my son I honestly don’t think the hole gets filled, but we do learn to live with it most of the time. But we never stop loving them or missing them.
I am so very sorry. You will be in my thoughts.
Oh, God. I’m so so sorry. There are no words.
There are no words to describe how you must be feeling. I am so very very very sorry.
I’m so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. I will be praying for your family tonight.
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious daughter. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
I know that there are no words to even take a corner of your pain away, but I just wanted to let you know that I am so sorry for your loss. I am shedding a tear and offering up a prayer for you tonight.
Zoe and Lennox. I will chant for them.
How can life possibly be so cruel?
I am so sorry about your broken hearts and lost angels.
“. . . the most beautiful symphonies were unfinished. . .”
Heartfelt sorrow for you and your family.
I am so sorry. I came here from Tash’s blog and just wanted to say my thoughts are with you and your family at this heartbreaking time. So sorry.
I am so sorry for the loss of your twins. My heart is breaking for you. Your family will be in my prayers.
No words can express how sorry I am for your losses.
I am so sorry for your loss, there really are no words only my thoughts and prayers.
I am so very sorry for you and your husband, and like many others, you’ll be in my thoughts and hopes.
I came here from M’s site. I am so so sorry. Words cannot express the devastation and shock. My thoughts are with you both and with Zoe and Lennox. I think they must have found each other, but how I wish they were here with you instead.
My heart breaks for you! My deepest condolences on the loss of your sweet little ones!!! I’m sooo sorry!
I am so so saddened to read of your precious losses! I know that everyone who has come by your blog will be thinking of you and your husband and your precious son and daughter! You are all in my thoughts and prayers!
I am so, so sorry for your losses.
I am a NICU nurse in Tampa, FL and was sent a link to your blog from a friend. I could not help but be touched by the story of your little ones and feel pain for you when reading of your loss. There is nothing I can do to take away your pain, but know that after reading your blog I will be better able to be a comfort to other parents in your situation. I hope that I will be able to be a shoulder to cry on or a glimmer of hope for other families that I see every week. Know that as nurses we hurt for the babies we lose as well and your babies will not be forgotten. I will be keeping your family in my prayers.
I am so so sorry about your darling babies. You and your husband will be in our prayers.
Here by way of Meri-ann.
I’m so sorry. Just so sorry. It’s too much, really. You shouldn’t have to be living this.
I can’t believe this. Sorry doesn’t begin to express my sorrow or my condolences. I am thinking of you and your family.
I’m so very very sorry for your loss. This is truly a nightmare.
no words, just support and sorrow and prayers… I am soo soo sorry for your losses
Dear Zoe
I weep for you. You have left this world far too early and we were hoping so much that you would grow big and strong.
Your mum is broken hearted. She loves you as much as the world. Your dad is weighed down with the sorrow of losing his son, and now his sweet sweet girl.
Travel gently in the next world with your brother carried by their love.
You have left a big hole in this one. It will never be filled.
I wish you were here, touching your mummy and curling your fingers around your dad’s finger. Keeping them awake and making them laugh and cry. Being a source of healing as they grieve your brother Lennox.
I am so so sad that you have died. It is not fair.
I send you and your brother a kiss.
Stay together little ones.
Dear A and S
I am heartbroken for you. It seems an unbelievable and unbearable grief to bare. I know how empty your arms feel…… how you long for their weight, their softness, the smell of Zoe’s head, a stroke of Lennox’s toes. I know that you know the feel of them in your arms. How they fit against your body. The peace of holding them and breathing them in.
I am sorry that all this has been taken from you.
I am sorry that Zoey has died.
I am sorry that Lennox has died.
I am sorry that your family now seems so small.
Sending all my love and strength. Each of you are in my prayers.
Love Barbara
I had just recently come across your blog and began to keep up with you and yours.
I’m a so very, very sorry to hear that little Zoe has gone to join Lennox. May you find some small measure of comfort in knowing they began together and now they are together again.
Hang in there. Feel what you feel. Do what you want. Take your time and be good to yourself.
I know there are no words, no words at all that can help you get through this time. Just know you and your husband are surrounded by love and prayers.
M also sent me across to you. Totally inadequate but it’s all I have – so, so, sorry for the loss of your beautiful babies.
I’m sorry. I am so sorry that this has happened to you.
I am so very sorry that you don’t have your beautiful babies healthy and at home with you. To have them both taken from you is just so horrible.
Sending you both massive hugs.
xxx
Dearest A and S,
There are no words… just hugs and much love sent via this message at this awful time for you both.
I am so very, very sorry about the loss of your beautiful babies. My heart breaks for both of you.
So heartbreaking and so very unfair – RIP sweet sweet Lennox and Zoe.
I have no words…I only wish you peace. I’m so sorry.
There are no adequate words, but I can’t say nothing. I am so very sorry and am thinking of you all often.
-CP
I am so sorry for your loss. I don’t have words. I found out on lost and found and read last night but the tears for you won’t stop. You are in my thoughts and prayers all of you.
I am so sorry. So very, very sorry.
I don’t know you and I’m not even a mother yet, but my heart is hurting my chest right now. I have a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. What beautiful babies you had and how tragic that they should be taken away from you so soon. My prayers are with you and your husband.
Oh God, my heart is breaking. I am sooo sorry you went through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband and your family.
I just don’t know what to say. I’m so, so very sorry.
I am so sorry, too. I just can’t imagine. Please know there are so many out here that are thinking of you, even though we are strangers. I can’t imagine a greater loss than that of a child.
I came over here from Amy’s blog and I am just so heartbroken for you….
I am so tremendously sorry.
Lennox and Zoe were here on the earth far too short of time.
How do you cram a lifetime of love into hours and weeks?
It is just so not fair.
I do not know you, but just know that you guys are in my thoughts and prayers
-Jenn
I am so so sorry for your losses. You and your families are in my thoughts and prayers.
I am so sorry! I am sooo sorry…
They feel like the most hollow of words, but please know they come straight from my heart, I am so sorry.
We lost our twins, Joseph and Molly, in October of 2003. They were born at just under 24 weeks and both died shortly after birth. The hole is still there.
i found your blog via tash at awful but functioning. i am so, so sorry. i am sorry that zoe and lennox won’t grow up knowing and loving you, and that you won’t grow old touching and holding them. it’s not fair. it’s awful. it’s terrible.
i have two stillborn daughters and for me, the hole has never gone away. i’ve just learned how to live with it. i didn’t think i would be able to, just as you think you won’t be able to. and then, somehow, you do. and there is a kind of terrible-ness to that, too.
my heart is full for you and your family. please know that there are a lot of people sending you a lot of love.
I am so so sorry for your loss. Blessing.
words don’t seem enough…. I am so sorry. May God cradle you in this terrible time.
I am so incredibly sad for you. I will pray for the holes in your heart to heal and for your sweet babies in heaven.
There are no words for how awful and sad this is. I am crying for you and S. It isn’t any comfort, but know that many people are thinking about you, Zoe and Lennox and sending their loving thoughts.
Words cannot express how you and your husband are feeling now. I am so sorry for your loss.
I am so very, very sorry for your losses.
I am so incredibly sorry for your losses.
My heart breaks for your losses. I am so very sorry.
I am so incredibly sorry. You are in my thoughts.