Well, now I’ve gone and done it. I emailed the woman at Dr. N’s office who helped me get in touch with Dr. N while she was on maternity leave this past spring. I asked her if she wouldn’t mind helping me get my first appointment scheduled. Call me crazy, but these days I just find it easier to deal with people who already know our story. I just don’t have the energy or reserves to explain over and over again. She was so helpful and understanding before. I hope she doesn’t mind being my intermediary for this first appointment. Once I’m actually on the schedule and making appointments doesn’t require explanation, I’ll be fine on my own I’m sure.
I’m not in a hurry. There are lots of things to do before we actually start the FET. I’ll need all of my blood work redone. We will need to take an injections class again (actually, Shannon never attended one. I took it, then taught him how to give the shots) since it’s been almost two years since the first one. Dr. N mentioned a saline sonogram since I had the c-section. I want to get all of the preliminary testing done before I start the lupron. I don’t see any point in taking the drugs until I’m sure there won’t be any delays.
I’m trying to determine if I’m really ready for this. I don’t think I’m not ready. I’m not excited about it, that’s for sure. I’m a little apprehensive and a lot sad.