Test day

Beta appointment is in 90 minutes. Hopefully I won’t have to wait until 6 pm to get the results. At this point, I don’t have any guess.

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did good

29 total. 27 were useable. Did ICSI. Fertilization report tomorrow. Lots of hurty right now and no good drugs. Going back to sleep. Talk to you later!

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Nope

Actually, it sort of makes sense in a twisted way. If the third time is supposed to be the “charmed” one, and I got pregnant on Fet#1 and Fet#2, then Fet#3 being negative sort of fulfills that wives’ tale in a backwards fashion.
I’m fine. He’s ok. At least I get [...]

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Just waiting now

Blood has been drawn. Now we wait. To be honest, I’m not expecting a positive. I don’t have any real reason to think that, it’s just a feeling I have. It may come from the knowledge that a positive doesn’t mean quite what it used to. A positive doesn’t mean [...]

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valium

this is the fourth time i’ve taken valium and the first time it’s affected me like this.
going back to sleep now.
glad transfer is over. it wasn’t much fun. details when i’m not so fuzzy.

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Hmmm

I’m sort of excited and sort of afraid…this is one of those things that could be fantastic or it could take something I love and just completely botch it.
Where The Wild Things Are

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Welcome to the Bazaar

No, that’s not a typo. Yes, bizarre IS more appropriate when talking about me, but since my new distraction is cooking Moroccan food “bazaar” fit better.
I found a remaindered Moroccan cookbook with tons of food porn photos and decided that this was a good cuisine to add to my repertoire. Or, as Shannon [...]

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You are here

I had another beta on Saturday. That came back at around 31, so the methotrexate is definitely working now. I have ANOTHER beta on Thursday. If we stick to this pattern, it should be around 10.
We spent our Saturday doing fun things. We went to a bookstore for a couple of [...]

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Zoë

Today is Zoë’s day. She died a year ago, today.
I thought I’d have lots to say, but there isn’t anything I haven’t said already this past year.
There is such a big, empty hole in my life.
I miss you, Zoë. I love you.

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Monday

Has there ever been a Presidential Inaugeration with this much “pre-game” activity?
Things on the miscarriage front are not going well. I finally remembered to ask the nurse what my level from the 12th was. Dr. N told me it went up, but she didn’t give me the exact number. Turns out, it [...]

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