I’m combining two post ideas into one; my own challenge to come up with a post inspired by one of the quotes and Calliope’s suggestion to post about remembrance and loss on Leap Day. I’ve written many entries on grief and loss here and I’m sure I’ll write many more before I’m done. So many milestones lie just ahead. I’m just getting started on this journey. So, rather than use more words, I pulled out my paints last night.
“Life begins on the other side of despair.” Jean-Paul Sartre
It seems the challenge is to figure out how you get to the other side. Will despair best you or will you rise above it, be more than the pain and the anger and the fear? I don’t think it ever leaves you, but I hope you find the balance, that it becomes background noise instead of drowning out everything.
I’m sorry these are so blurry. They are too big for my scanner and I wanted to have them for today’s post, so I just took photos of them. I like the idea that the missing piece of me is with them, is them… the Zoë and Lennox-shaped hole in my heart… and if I just look close enough, in the right place I’ll see them.
Those are absolutely beautiful.
A – These are seriously two of the most moving, touching pieces of art that I have ever seen. You didn’t need any words; those paintings say it all. I immediately burst into tears when I saw them. My heart just breaks for you. No one should have to suffer this kind of anguish. Sending many hugs, and wishing you peace and healing with all of my heart.
I rarely post on blogs but those paintings are so beautiful.
Better, so much better than any words, wonderful just wonderful.
these brought tears to my eyes, a.
so moving. so touching.
positively heartbreaking.
xoxo
I’ll remember Zoe and Lennox too.
These are very beautiful.
Sending you (((((hugs)))))
so beautiful thank you for sharing those.
thinking of you today with love.
Those pictures are really extraordinary. You’ve captured perfectly what so many grieving parents feel.
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How beautiful. You made me cry. Sending you love.
Long time lurker here. Your artwork is beautiful and very touching. I am so sorry for your losses.
Those are so beautiful. Now I am tearing up again.
Simply beautiful….thinking of your sweet ones today.
Breathtaking. Thank you for exposing your soul to us and allowing us to share those paintings.
Heart breaking, beautiful and raw all at once. Thank you for sharing them with us. I will remember Lennox and Zoe today and everyday.
I think of you so often and just don’t know what to say. I feel like all of my words are inadequate. I just want you to know that I read all of your posts. I am here (lurking) and I think of Lennox and Zoe quite often and am so sorry that you can’t have them in your arms.
The artwork in wonderful.
-Faith
These are just beautiful. Such simple pictures, but they capture the feelings in a way words couldn’t.
They’re so beautiful. They remind me of the line from the story book, Gator, where the carousel animal climbs down from his place and the loss of the pole creates this hole in his heart where the wind blows through.
The paintings are heartbreakingly beautiful. And so true.
Thank you for sharing these with us.
beautiful
They are beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. I hope creating them gave you a little comfort.
there are moments and matters of our hearts and spirit we may never totally understand….
i have waited to share something with you…so aware of the need to balance my words, needing to share our sharp sadness…but knowing you need so much more. now your picture has touched the very core of my heart…and you need to know this…
a week or so after your visit, i had another night when i could not sleep…so i went out to try the “sleeping sofas”. it was very dark, the lake was calm, the sky was cloudy…i closed my eyes for a while…then i had a sudden sharp need to look out.
framed in the big window was a lovely, bright sliver moon…and off to the left two brighter, twinkling stars side by side. i went to the window, the sky had completely cleared…but oddly there were no other stars visible…anywhere…
i wrapped up in a blanket and sat with those two little stars until the sun came up….feeling , at once, familiar sadness and a new gentle calm…i was then and am now more convinced than ever that night welcomed our babies home….you have somehow expressed this exact moment in your picture….may this bring you hope, continued courage and love….ooooxcxxx
Very moving paintings, and a great way to make your grief tangible.
just beautiful… no words needed. so glad you broke out your paints. ~luna
These are stunning, Simply stunning. What a gorgeous tribute.