I swear those damn sticks should be a controlled substance. You should have to sign a release before buying them. There should be PSAs warning you not to succumb to peer pressure to “Just POAS.” I knew the damn trigger was out of my system. I didn’t need to see that blank space staring back at me to prove it. It doesn’t matter that I know as well as anyone that 9dpo is too early for a urine based home pregnancy test to detect anything. It still crushes the soul to see it.
Just last night, S and I were sitting on the couch, giggling…and if you know my husband, you are shocked at the thought of him giggling…about the fact that we both had this gut feeling that it really worked. All the other cycles we just felt OK about, but this one, this one is different.
I told him I was going to test this morning. I promised him that I was ok with it, that it wouldn’t upset me or stress me out. I was so happy at having made it this far and feeling so good about things that I couldn’t be phased by the lack of a little blue line. And it was all just in good fun.
Apparently, I just lied to my husband for the first time. I tried to shake it off in the shower. It’s too early. The test isn’t that sensitive. It might just mean that it isn’t twins. I tried to move beyond it on the drive to work. It’s too early. There’s a reason the doctor waits until 12 dpo to test your blood.
I was standing in a perfect tree pose. My chakras were aligned. My chi was flowing smoothly. Today, I’ve been knocked off balance. I can’t feel that gut feeling now. Instead, I just feel kicked in the gut and I feel stupid for both testing and for taking it so hard when I KNOW it doesn’t mean anything.
I don’t like it here.
I’m sorry it was negative – that sucks, even when you know it’s too early.
My daughter’s test was negative at 12 dpo, if that helps at all…
The 2WW is hard, no matter how you go about it.
I hate those tests. Hang in there my dear. I hope that the rest of your 2ww goes quickly.
It means NOTHING. Some people get BFP early, some later, and it has to do with how your body processes hormones into your pee and nothing else. You could have triplets in there and not get a positive POAS test until after the beta.
It means nothing but I would be feeling the same way. I hope you get your BFP!
A negative always sucks, even if you know better. I’m typically no better about testing early, so I can’t lecture you, either.
Just hoping that it’s too early, and that your test in a few days will be positive.
Keep your head up… that negative stick doesnt mean a thing. The feeling of that blank stick staring back at you is one of the worst feelings in the world. I am sorry… Just a few more days and this TWW will be over and we can celebrate
Pee Sticks… so evil…yet so necessary! So sorry!
think peace…and patience…and add a little prayer…for good measure… lots of body parts all around out here sending the best energy….